My name is Kirk Taylor. I’m a follower of Jesus Christ who, by God’s grace, overcame lifelong gender identity struggles in my late forties. I’m also a strong advocate for Twelve Steps for Christians and recovery principles that point people to Christ. My mission is simple: to be an example of God’s transforming power for anyone who desires a growing relationship with Him.
Early Life
I grew up in a small town in eastern Iowa in the seventies and eighties, raised in a middle-class conservative Christian family. My mom played the organ at our local United Methodist Church, and my dad taught Sunday school. But when my grandmother passed away when I was nine, we stopped attending church. I had some head knowledge about God and Jesus, but no real relationship with Christ.
From the time I was five years old until my late forties, I silently battled gender identity issues. I thought I was a Christian, but deep down I feared God would never accept me because of my struggles.
Brokenness and Searching
On top of my hidden battle, I went through three failed marriages. The divorces weren’t caused by gender issues alone but by deeper brokenness in my life. Entrepreneurship gave me both escape and cover — I could overcompensate for my insecurities while secretly feeding them. Eventually, after my third divorce, I gave up fighting, went public, and started living as a female.
For a year and a half I lived that way. My anxiety dropped, but my deeper problems didn’t go away. I was still the same person — only dressed differently. The relief was shallow, and the emptiness remained.
Then, in February 2016, a turning point came. A friend was doing my makeup before I went out. As she looked into my eyes, something in me broke. In that moment I thought, “I can’t do this anymore.” Just like that, the stronghold of gender dysphoria began to crumble.
Meeting Christ
That summer I tried to figure out what had happened, but I found no answers. Then, in October 2016, I walked into a Bible-based church for the first time. I picked up a New Living Translation Bible and decided to read it cover-to-cover.
In seven weeks, I finished the entire Bible. What I discovered wasn’t just answers to my questions — it was the living God who had set me free. Fear still whispered that my gender struggles might return, but Christ was stronger. Day by day, He replaced my anxiety with faith, trust, and freedom.
Life Today
Today, I am at peace in my God-given masculinity. I live with joy and gratitude, knowing that Christ broke the chains that bound me for over forty years. What He did for me, He can do for anyone.
My heart is to encourage others — whether through recovery, discipleship, or simply walking alongside them — to discover the same freedom and new life in Jesus Christ.